Therapy

There has been so much that has hit our lives recently and find myself wanting to write about it and yet, I have not found the strength or courage to do so. It mostly comes down to finding the courage.  My words have been lacking and my voice has been muddled over by discouragement, sorrow and plain chaos.  For me, my therapy is writing. Something that I like to think that my dear Grandmother, Maggie passed onto me. 

To start from the beginning... I have to update from our previous post.

We have been trying for baby #2 for almost 18 months.  We recently have been seeing I guess you could call a nurse practitioner, infertility specialist.  She is amazing - referred to us by the wonderful Dr. Nelson.  We have been doing the full workup of testing.  We have been through this before with Britta. Its no fun, emotionally and physically draining and terrifying. 

(I will get back to this in a bit)

Along with all the testing our dearest Maggie passed away this past week.  Something unexpected yet perfectly expected.  She would always remind us that she would "twinkle" and twinkle she did.  She is and will always be sorely missed. She lingers with us and will always continue to be a guiding light to our little family.  

With the multiple doctors appointments, medications and mourning this week there has been a peace and a confidence in the outlook for our future. I have no doubt in my mind that we have Maggie looking out for our hopefully growing family.  I know that our prayers are heard and there is a plan for our family and now with Maggie rooting for us from the other side of the veil I have the confidence that the Lord knows what he is doing and we can put our trust in him.     

I apologize for the seemingly long and, much to my dismay, depressing post.  I guess I am looking for my therapy.  I believe that "writing" therapy is a much better option than "retail" therapy at least from Gunnar's perspective.  

I have Paige to thank for giving me inspiration and courage to post about Maggie.  

She is the bestest friend a girl to ask for! Every girl needs a girlfriend just like her! 

Love ya babe! You have certainly made my week more bearable.